My whole life I have always felt like I have never fit in anywhere. In church, in school, or at work. Yes, I have wonderful friends, that I would do anything for, and would do anything for me. I am so very grateful for, most of them I have found at school and work. That is not IT.
Deep down, I don’t feel like I should be in the group. I feel like a fraud. I feel unworthy, No one will like me, I’m not the same as them, because they are so cool, smart… whatever.
In my head, my thoughts went like this:
In church, “they aren’t going through what I’m going through. Their marriage is perfect…, their kids never did what mine are doing, they haven’t’ had the thoughts that I have, done the things that I have done, they will think I’m a bad person. They won’t want to be around someone like me, they will never understand, and they will hate me.”
You can insert every negative thought in every situation. Because guess what? When I talk to people, EVERYONE feels the exact same way!!! So… if EVERYONE feels like they don’t fit in, then… we all should fit it! Because, everyone feels like a goober, misfit, misunderstood, weirdo! Why I wonder???
Then, I remember when doing my bible journaling, in 2nd Corinthians 6:17. I realized, that God set us apart and we are not made to fit in! Whew! That’s a relief! Because… Now, I have absolutely no desire to fit it! Do you know what? My friends still love me, just the way I am! If people don’t love me for who I am, they are not my friends anyway! I only need to please God. Thankfully, I FIT IN WITH HIM! Because He made me!