Alone

All I ever wanted in my life was to be a wife and mother. I’m so very angry, that my life didn’t turn out like that. Of course I’m a mother. I did my very best. I made huge mistakes, of course. I worked crazy hard and gave up a lot to do what I did for them and I have wonderful girls. Their fathers, and my last husband, just didn’t “get the memo” of the happy family scene.

I did my best to make a beautiful home for everyone, and I did. I just don’t think I am strong enough to do it all alone, anymore. I tried so very hard. So hard. What happened? Why can’t I have the happy marriage, someone that loves me, no matter what? Lord know I have believed the best in so many, loved them, and waited to be loved. I just want to be held, to hold, to laugh, to love. Normal stuff. Was I perfect? Of course not! Did I try my best? Absolutely!

Now, I don’t even have any friends to spend time with. The friends I do have are married and living their best lives. I am happy for them! But, I feel so alone.

I’m in a box alone it keeps getting smaller and I don’t know what to do. 

Have you ever felt like this?